"...there they were. Three smiling, happy, wonderfully rambunctious little boys. We prayed some more, and we talked about how things had fallen into place. The timing. The uncanny synchrony of things. We agreed that we could see God's hand in it. ... We prayed some more. And then we decided together what we should do. Today we said yes." —Excerpt from a blog post Ron wrote on August 18 when we first learned about our boys.
I woke up this morning with a feeling of heaviness. I've been checking my email multiple times a day for weeks now, just waiting to hear some news from Poland about the official referral. You see, once we get the referral the boys will finally find out they have a family who loves them and is working hard to bring them home. We'll be able to send them care packages full of Legos (which they LOVE) and pictures and notes. We'll be able to find out more about them, their background, what they're like, their medical history, etc.
Going weeks on end without hearing any kind of an update is difficult, so during my quiet time this morning I read through scriptures dealing with waiting. Habakkuk 2:3 "If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay." Psalm 37:7 "Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him" Psalm 27:14 "Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!" I felt better and went on about my morning routine, but later another wave of sadness and impatience hit.
As a stay-at-home, homeschooling mom, sometimes the only "alone time" you get is in the bathroom. Mom needed some time so I told the kids I was going to get a shower and went upstairs. With worship music playing and a hot shower running over me I poured out my heart to God. I'm pretty sure tears were involved, but the good thing about the shower is it doesn't betray your tears. And God met me right there, at that moment. He told me if I would just trust Him and be patient, He would come through. I needed to get on with the work He gave me to do today and quit checking my phone. Finally, at that moment, I had peace.
I went on with my day helping Zoe with algebra, reading with Sam, handing out chores, etc. At some point this afternoon, while I was texting a friend about her Rodan and Fields order my email dinged and a window popped up on my screen. I had an email from our International Social Worker at Lifeline and the subject line was "Good news :)" Y'all, my heart leaped. I opened up the email and read "Hey Ron and Alison! We have been given the official referral from the Ministry in Poland for you to adopt the boys! We should have the physical document within the next two weeks - it's being written and translated now!" They are going to be OURS. Three new Ottlings.
Want to know something really cool? Today is five months TO THE DAY we agreed to pursue the boys! God has a thing for timing and His timing is always for the best. When the adoption is complete, we'll have five sons. Five is the Biblical number for grace. Grace is a gift; these boys are a gift to our family and we are a gift to them; and this referral is a gift to us today, to let us know He is still working behind the scenes to move things along for our benefit and His glory!
We still have approximately 4-5 months before being able to travel to Poland to meet and officially adopt these three beautiful boys and we all look forward to that day. There's also still a large amount of money to be raised before we are fully funded. God has provided so far, and will continue to do so I have no doubt. Maybe God is nudging you to help out in some way. We're not all called to adopt, but as followers of Christ we're all called to do something. Whether it's financially, through your prayers, or however you feel impressed to help, we're so very thankful you all are along with us on the journey.